Hey Sweetheart,
It was 2009 when first became familiar with those twinkling eyes and full happy smile that said it all without uttering a single word. I built up a soft corner for you in just a few days as if you were somebody I’ve known for quite a while. It feels like yesterday that I immersed in love as I took a glance at my Sarfaraz Yousuf. It was only yesterday that Mansoor stole my heart again and didn’t return and Anni said ‘Fikar Not’. Was it not yesterday that I was grooving to Suddh Desi Romance’s songs or laughed at chocolaty Shiv’s jokes? Tell me, it was not yesterday when I was so eager to watch Sonchiriya?
At time I never knew you’ll be such a great teacher but I knew you are a lot more than what we saw in movies. Thankfully, I knew Sushant as Sushant ❤ You’ve introduced me to your beautiful world and in no time you became my world 🌏. Thanks for introducing me to such fascinating stuff you were indulged in and I am now. It’s beautiful. It’s forever.
Scrolling down the memory lane I find bittersweet memories now. champ! How are you so beautiful to make me fall on love with you even more with every nanosecond passing by. Time doesn’t move here Sush.♾
When I think of it even more deeply it feel wrenched. An overflow of emotions and arising questions that need authentic answers. You are here with us polymath. Aren’t you just a thought away? You live as everything that’s good in me. Probably the best manner to not let your legacy fade is to do what you did and the way you did. Do it like Sushant!
Not a jiffy when you don’t sway over my thoughts and not a day when you don’t make my eyes watery or my heart heavy. You live on my Idol in every way possible. Thank God I dared to walk ‘Chaar Kadam’ at soon as you asked me to and it journey worth cherishing forever. You are everything I don’t have a word for.
Thank you for changing my perception and making me aware of all the wonderful wonders of the universe. You made me everything that I ever needed to be and making me dream along.
Thank you for making me more than what I ever was or will be❤
You are right here💫
Kal ki hi baat hai♾
A girl with Sushant embedded in her heart eternally,
Anshika
2 replies on “It feels like Yesterday ❤”
Almost half a year has gone by and still we are unable to bear the loss of such a talented , God-loving , passionate & a divine Bollywood celeb ! I remember when the news came out on 14th June , I didn’t know you too well and I started thinking you were such a coward person to take such a drastic step in life . Then only after 5 days , I woke up one morning feeling your soul presence for a fraction of a second in my studio apartment in New York . I knew there was something bothering me about your death and thought of researching on you more and also to find out exactly what had happened to you and who you were you in real life !!! Although my family was against me “wasting” time to get justice for you …. I reached out to God to help me to guide my heart to stand firmly for your justice! Can I say , God truly loves you so much ….so very much to guide me to re-activate my Twitter account (which I had never learnt to use and did my best to brush on my skills on this social media platform) and other social platforms to voice for your justice even louder…
I am so humbled and honored to use my limited skills during this pandemic to do whatever I could to drive forward for your justice. It was soul-enriching ! Yes, I cried …. I cried like a baby for a “soul-friend” that I once lost and lost again through you . I started wondering why such talented passionate young people have to leave this earth before their prescribed timing from God . I was devastated and horrified ! I knew with every breath count remainining in me , I had to be there for your family and for your fans/supporters. The best achievement was to get the case to the CBI, ED & NCB to trust the authorities. During this time , I learnt so much more about myself and the power of my writing skills and channeling out my emotions through my words!
My love and prayers are deepening exponentially for you and for your supporters who are keeping you alive through this social realm , Sushant . I pray to God that He fulfills all your wishes at least in Heavens now! I could only do so much to create this revolution for your justice ! I am sorry I didn’t appreciate you much while you were alive as I was disconnected with Bollywood and was busy growing myself spiritually to be more resourceful for people and to deepen my connection with God Almighty . I believe ONLY OUR LORD can help us unite again to fulfill our heartiest wishes ! I wish for your justice and for all the innocent lives lost in this world . I want to use all my education , passion , experince and spirituality purely for the cause of the helping the humanity at large. I want to keep on sharpening my identity by God’s blessings and the right educators to further catapult me to the next level of enlightenment !
I am here for your family, fans and supporters with my full soul presence to be of any help to them with my limited power .God bless you all truly ! Peace be upon each of you and to all the departed souls!
Sending hugs , respect ,love and honor !
~Nabiha
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