The world looks small from the sky ✨ ♾🔱

It has been 5 months since the precious pain had hit me so hard that it dented my heart. A pain so deep that love immersed in it. It’s Diwali here as I’m writing this letter and I lit the ‘diya’ for you, prayed for you. They say you are the star up there which probably you are; the brightest and the youngest one. But maybe you are a cloud spread all around cause as soon as I look up I see that full happy smile and I know my Sushant lives on. They also say that we are remembering you but tell me that when did we forget? When did we not love you like we do now forever ? We did love you HAMESHA HAMESHA HAMESHA IMMANUEL RAJKUMAR JUNIOR. ❤ I have innumerable questions and I need answers. We need the truth to be exposed soon.
I was barely five years old when Pavitra Rishta aired and then Kai Po Che(Our Manav was Ish now). I loved SDR’s songs and grooved to it like anything. For the first time I saw you on big screen in PK and was like, “wow Sushant is also there in this film!” It was the song ‘Chaar Kadam’ and immersion in complete love with my Sarfaraz. It was now that I started clicking on all the links that had information about you. I remember coming home humming it and singing it again and again or watching on YouTube several times a day. Then my Byomkesh impressed me. The reel Dhoni made me feel as if he was the real one and not for a  single moment I felt it was Sushant, not Dhoni. Till the time Raabta was released I felt like “This can’t be Sush, it’s MSD!!” I watched Raabta and seeing Shiv sparkling, I fell in love again. And then it was Mansoor and I was like ”You already have my heart, then why are you snatching it again man?” I had tears rolling down my cheeks. My Lakhna was a Baaghi and ofcourse they can also be good. Sonchiriya is a cult movie. And I was so exhilarated for it and when I finally watched it, I don’t even need to say how much we all enjoyed. And then on 24th July 2020, it was Dil Bechara Day and once again I was ready to feel the magic. I had to pause to wipe my tears off. We saw it with a Schrödinger’s smiley as Manny added up a bunch to the memories.
There is not a single day when I don’t talk about you with my maa. No matter how much I console myself, I feel the void. I do feel that it’s NOT SERI. For everything I do, I do it your way. To write with my non dominant hand, to meditate on binaural beats, to get more into reading and doing a lot more unending stuff that you loved & so do I. Here I am trying to express my feelings writing so many open letters but trust me, no matter how many letters I write, a lot would still be left to be said. Thank you idol!!
How I wish…❤
Ek keemati sa dard
Uske beech ka safar na jaane kab tay ho gaya
Ek pyari si muskaan liye aasman ko jagmagata gaya
Chhod kar haseen pal karwaan banata gaya…❤

The world looks small
From the sky
The troubles fade away
When you fly
You were born to try
Never say good bye…

Just sing away….❤
“DHAL RAHI SHAAM HAIN, DIL TERE NAAM HAIN”♾
You break my heart and fix it again.
~Anshika
And as I say ‘A girl with Sushant embedded in her heart eternally’.