The first emotion was that of absolute shock, the minute I came across this news on a normal Sunday afternoon lockdown-ed with family. The next few minutes I remember telling my mother, how disgusting that people plant such false stories?
How can media channels stoop down to this level of claiming someone isn’t alive? This is ugly, not humorous. I stayed glued to my phone till quite late in the night searching for “Sushant found alive”, “Rumour clarified”, somewhere I know I still am.
And all of us are, aren’t we? And yet we know he is here. A brilliant light, a warm presence, a magnificence larger than the world encapsulating the universe in his infinite love for all of us.
The second emotions were those of immense guilt. I’ve never been a “movies” person, I read books. I have watched only “PK” in the theatre; “Shudh Desi Romance”, “Raabta” & “MS Dhoni” on streaming platforms some time after its release.
If only all of us had known him, made an effort… While we are responsible in someway, we were also kept away from knowing who “The Sushant Singh Rajput” was!
The third emotions were filled with anger if not rage & immense hatred for whoever is responsible for this outcome. Every time I saw Twitter rage, I felt happy. Knowing there are millions of people fighting actively from across the world brought a certain sense of pride & joy, like the silver lining to the dark clouds that had descended upon us.
The fourth emotions were of an intense connection, the more I read about this person, strangely the more I understood him & myself! I’m an Aquarian born in the 90s, grew up on books, love physics, astrology, astronomy, my country & my people.
I have followed Da Vinci since high school and could always mirror write and am an ambivert. If only I had a chance to a conversation with our dearest Sush, it would’ve been such a pleasure. To know his thoughts, understand his viewpoints, for there is no doubt he was many times more brilliant & hard working/ passionate than I have been.
Today the final emotions have led me to make plans! I’ve made a timetable of doing everything from reading books, learning to play the guitar, origami/ sketching to writing.
Enough of lazing around, giving excuses & criminally wasting time! People who are blessed with even little also have a responsibility towards the betterment of the country & the world and our Hero is a scintillating example!
I have always been an active volunteer especially in education & women empowerment and of late haven’t found time. Now I need to do it not just for myself, but for my fellow Aquarian sweetheart Sush whose soul lives alive in me as it does within every SSRian.
One person has shaken up the universe, tiny specks of his luminescence lives on in us. What stops it from cleaning up our country, dear brothers & sisters?
If not now, when?
If not his way, how?
He is no less than my dearest Lord Shiva in human form.
He came to wake us up, don’t go back to sleep! Please!
2 replies on “Another Wandering Aquarian Soul – Inspired by Sushant”
loved your post man! and I resonate with each and every thing you have said. All the 4 stages of emotions that you have beautifully expressed, I have been through them all. I am not a movies person either, not really, and yet this connection with Sush was/is something too magical to believe. I strongly feel connected to him like million other SSRians. This is pure divine what we are experiencing. I feel so blessed to be able to connect with fellow warriors who resonate with these feelings. Love you all
I agree!!
I kind of blame myself. I am not a movie person but I used to go to theaters to watch his movies. I didn’t go for all of them. I think I left 2 movies of him and I watched them later on a streaming platform. I used to follow him on social media but I never commented or shared anything, though there were a million things a person could learn from his one interview or a post. I just loved to see his posts. He taught us that whatever your occupation is just don’t stop there. Live your life. Keep learning new things. I wish I had a chance to talk to him!!
He taught us so many things. Let’s keep the light given by our beloved Sush alive.