To our beloved SSR – The Real Perfectionist! 💌

I hope this note finds you this time 💌. A month ago, at first I got disheartened when somehow my letter didn’t get addressed . But then I felt it doesn’t really matter because the raabta with SSR is heart to heart afterall 🤗♥️

“Love is so short, forgetting is so long …..”
Don’t know for how many days I cried thinking about him …I looked at the sky searching for him in every other star .. 💫🌠🔭I still do sometimes.. I was 3-4 hrs away from him in Pune, wishing somehow magically I knew he was in trouble & I would have saved this b’ful soul … 💗

“If nothing saves us from death, at least love should save us from life. “- Pablo Neruda.

I read this message post 14th June on SSR’s Insta profile, fell in love with it along with his many other #selfmusing thoughts. I had the privilege of seeing Gulshan bhaiya during childhood days as we come from the same gully in Patna.

I am an IT professional. I had taken a break from FB for around an year, never really used Insta, Twitter much but since 14th June I got hyperactive on social media. My mind’s been constantly thinking about him, about how we have lost a gem so soon, about the truth behind his passing away. My heart is still not able to accept that he is gone so sometimes I want to believe that I am amidst a long nightmare, sometimes while watching his fun videos I want to forget the reality & cherish his beautiful memories.

I am a fan of quite a few celebrities, but what matters to me the most is how he/she as a person, at heart. I never really follow them much on social media …I wish I had followed SSR because he was worth one. I had watched a few interviews of him before like that of other celebrities but that was it. I loved his work in whichever movies I had seen especially Kai po che and MSD – The untold story, a late riser like me woke up early even before my alarm rang only to watch my favorites – MSD & SSR on screen. I loved him as Ishaan in kai po che, no wonder why SSR changed his future plans due to this movie.

After MSD I wanted to drop him a message on social media about how crazy I was about him but didn’t, thinking it would be cheesy. I can proudly say I had watched most of his movies in theatre. Missed Kedarnath due to lack of company ☹️ My husband loved chhichhore so much that he watched it multiple times in theatre, once even alone. I loved SSR as a person, in his interviews always found him humble, loving, grounded despite being a genius.

Generally “beauty with brains” quote is used for women but it fits him too ♥️ loved his dancing in Jhalak and his work in the few episodes that I had seen of pavitra rishta. Such a dreamer+ doer he was! “जाए वहीं ले जाए जहाँ ,बेसब्रियां….”

I remember vividly one fine day during grad days my mom called up to share the news that Gulshan bhaiya was going to feature on the TV show – Pavitra Rishta. I didn’t know Gulshan bhaiya much except about the location of his house, his coming to the playground in the evening and playing with other bhaiyas, his sister riding bullet in our gali. I basically knew him more as that super cool didi’s cute brother. Every time didi would cross our house on her bullet I would watch her awestruck and admire her. After I saw him on TV I naturally stopped calling him “bhaiya”, how could I call someone so hot & cute as bhaiya now 🤭. His sparkling eyes filled with dreams and his killer smile are mesmerizing..💔 (present tense feels better )

I always used to boast about SSR hailing from my gully near my friends and why not because I have always been proud of his personality and work .

A piece of our heart is lost with the going away of someone we love 💔 The void is never filled. Our world needs kind/hard working/real/smart people and whenever such people leave us it is heart-wrenching, it is becomes a great loss to humanity.

To me such people are legendary. SSR was one such gem, a polymath. He had plans to do so much for the society and was already working on few of his such dream projects. Try finding one celebrity with such level of talent in this industry and you will fail for sure !!

Our corrupt society doesn’t really deserve such goodness. Someday during this lockdown we were discussing about how every individual should be trained like been given basic army training in a sense that we all should experience that feeling of kindness, selflessness, sacrifice for the good of the world ..may be such things should be a part of our school’s curriculum along with other important aspects which are missing at present.

Our world needs to do better not just in terms of advancing science & technology but also in terms of re-establishing the lost humanity.

Quoting SSR’s another #selfmusing thought:  Nothing, absolutely nothing makes sense except love .

Needless to say legends like SSR, Irrfan Khan from industry, our army personnel, the “honest” doctors,the “honest” politicians & police ,social activists etc and every common man with goodness in their hearts are immortal. Sometimes I wonder how the after life would be …we can only imagine, it is beyond our reach. May be the good souls chill out there, may be SSR is now with his mom forever …truly wish those beautiful souls are at peace up there … ❤️☮️✌️🕊️

Loads of love from just another admirer,
Surabhi Singh