My sirius how have you been?? It’s been a long time like really long. You know I still have you’re notifications on, hoping that someday you’ll come and post something on Instagram about the cosmos at 4:30 am, pulling your fans leg in the comments and just interacting with them. There was a comment that I read back in 2018, it said, “I really wanna wakeup this early everyday so that I could be more successful in life” and you, my sirius, replied “Should I give you a buzz Tom in the morning?”, haha. Those days were fun and the vibe was also different then.
My friend and I discussed you then and we continue to discuss you even now boy but it doesn’t feel the same anymore. Yes, we used to stalk you but not like a creepy stalker way but in a healthy way obviously. Last time I praised you for your acting skills, but other than that can I come to the part where I say you are literally my sunshine? No, I mean it.
See, if you have the ability to ease someone down from their anger or whatever crappy mood they are in, you win over their heart right? I study and work like 10 hours in a day I know way less than how much you used to work and I have some bad days and right there at the moment I used to get a notification that Sushant singh rajput posted a photo 1 sec ago*, and all of a sudden my day becomes better and I survive a day at my college.
Sushant, I can look at you all day and never get tired. You have a face, which can ease down anyone’s bad day. I know I might not know you personally (I thought I would meet you someday since most of the times you asked your friends to come over but it was impossible for me to fly down from chennai to Mumbai all the way), but I feel like you have this optimistic attitude towards life, which I adore.
I might not know what happens on the inside but I used to believe that everything was going great with you and I always prayed it did. Little ups & downs are must to grow as a human and artist right? But it should benefit you, in the end, is all I wanted. You might never realize how charming you are *like a cute bunny but you have to believe me that you literally light up my world.
I totally get that you are super romantic, sensitive, caring, full of life and lost in some other world by the way you write. I mean who would have imagined that a normal guy who wanted to pursue acting pursued engineering, was a background dancer and then a television star and finally you became a full-fledged A-listed actor who writes, discusses & looks all dapper and stuff on the cover of magazines.
“Also, where do you buy those shirts from?”, haha, how I wrote all these stuff under your comments and was so quick to backspace it. I was so awkward and shy I mean I didn’t have the guts to write to you I never expressed my love towards the people I had a crush on lol so in that way I enjoyed reading your cute replies but the same time never dared to drop my comment under your posts and you would screw me if I told you this, you remember you came to chennai for you’re dhoni promotions and I missed meeting you 🙁 It was not on purpose, I was having my exams okay? Always wanted to ask you this “filter coffee epdi irunduchu” (how did the filter coffee taste ?)
Man, trust me I’m a huge fan of you’re Instagram page, I swear to god. You kept changing your dps and bios didn’t you? Now it’s been more than 10 months I see the same post time and again, the same people crying under your replies, the same bio, the same dp, man I’m done with all this.
I still I’m not over you and I never will. I don’t see you ticking those bucket list dreams off anymore, I don’t see you asking your fans to come to your house. Apparently when you were brainstorming Sushant, I’m sorry that I missed meeting you then but now I wanna meet and need a hug from you so bad that will make everything alright for me.
I hope you’re reading this somewhere out there, sitting on top of a fluffy cloud that I will look up on the sky, I will wait for you to wave at me from up there.
So Sirius, you promised that you will come back to chennai again. Phir kabhi?
