SO FAR YET SO CLOSE

Before putting down my thoughts in words, I closed my eyes and started imagining the presence of you and I felt the energy of my guiding star. I don’t even know if my words will reach you or not, still trying to build the connection with love and peace that you always want around yourself 🙂

Okay, toh Bhaiya, more than anything else, I remember you as an immensely positive, energetic and completely unique fleeting star who stepped down in this little planet to make some change and again flew back to the place where you actually belong, from where you can guide all those people within whom you have initiated the frequency for making a change. But emotion is playing a role yaar, it is never letting us accept what has happened to you, the more I try to console myself, the more your memory hunts differently. Every moment, the mind waits for a miracle, imagine Sushant is coming back and saying, “Arey Bhai, kitne bure log hai yaha, issiliye bhaag gaya tha, ek bohot badi jagah mili thi waha, I was so happy there alone with my sky, stars, only me, me and me.”, again I come back to reality and the
same thing repeats, your memories.

I never loved anyone from this smallest industry called “Bollywood”, and it is good
in all the cases except not recognising you. The only loss I suffered for not favouring any bollywood stars is that I lost you too when you were physically here but I am happy that now, not as a part of this cruel industry, but I am admiring you as a super human being who is a polymath, a social worker, a dreamer, a peace lover, a child and A HERO.
The speciality in you is that you are like us, you are us, people gets you easily, those who couldn’t, also didn’t deserve you, simple 🙂

The day, which was your last day here, only that day I was amazed to discover this incredible human being. The first thing that surprised me was the list of your 50 dreams that you shared on twitter, while scrolling through twitter with a heavy heart, I stopped at that post where I could see handwritten something (shared by one of your lovely fans). I started reading each one of them and tears were rolling off my eyes, I was like, people like this even exists in this industry?? It was all your dreams that attracted me straight since I could find many common dreams, at that moment I felt like talking to you even for just once and hug you very tightly, but by that time, it became impossible. Everyone knows what happened on that day after the news came, it was unbearable. The whole day, entire social media world was filled with you, your videos, interviews, great gestures and I restlessly started watching all of them and gradually my regret started, why did I miss this gem? Never in my life, the demise of anyone made me cry, but I couldn’t resist myself this time.

You are too good for this world Sushant bhai: I don’t know how to express how much I am attached to you within a very short span, may be due to the reason that you are exceptional and I want to be like you. You were no longer only a person for me after that, you became a world to explore, to learn new things daily, to learn how to self muse, to give inspiration for going systematic towards your goal and to learn how to live life to the fullest. Day by day, I started wandering in your world, found your poems, your sky view experiences, your telescope, your favourite Orion, your rocking guitar, the songs that you sang, your dance, your travel moments, your interest in gaming, artificial intelligence, found your incredible intelligence in every field, the astronomy freak within you, your charity towards education, disaster victims, your love for people, animal, plants, your daily plannings for being a better version, your
freakness for fitness, martial arts, Ohhhh bhaaaii, all these within just 34 years.

Someone: “You can’t do everything you want, afterall it is a single life. You must have to sacrifice something.”

Sushant: “LOL! Hold my tea.”

What an extraordinary life you lived in this planet Sushant bhai! You didn’t only live for yourself but also taught many of us how to live a life. You were here for a change and now keep watching the change from there where you are right now. Whenever you will feel chaos (which is happening), just see us, I mean towards those who have pledged to make all your dreams, goals come true and are working with the frequency that you have already initiated. They will never disappoint you. And you know, we have a #SelfMusing family who sings for you, who brings Gulab jamun and chocolates for you, who talks about your dreams, who shares your smile and spreads positivity, who are working day and night to become a good human being and contribute towards society, this family is a blessing that you have sent for us, I know you are seeing it all 🙂

We are now here and you are on the other side, feels like so far that we can’t even touch you or feel you. But I know only through love and peace, we can connect to you, talk to you without saying a word but through a peaceful introspection. You are always there to guide us through the right way, and yes you will punish us too if we go wrong. We can feel your energy, now see, aren’t we close now? Yess bhai yes. Stay Happy in your favourite place always, which is better than this suffocated place where widest minds might feel very uncomfortable. And one day, when our purpose will be completed on this planet, we will meet you on the other side and give you the tightest hug that you have no idea how much we are craving for. Till then, will be talking to you in some other way……………………

~ From a stellar dust Anushka,
18.09.2020 guided by the brightest star.