Love You My Guiding Star 💗

Dearest Sushant,
I’m writing this letter to you because I don’t know how else I can connect with you. I am sure you will receive all my love for you through this.
‘Cause all of me…Loves all of you… 💗

Honestly, I did not know much about you and was not following you. However, I enjoyed watching your films.

The day you left us, the pictures and videos that were circulated, sent chills down my spine. I was sick to my stomach and I felt this lump in my throat. I kept hoping for the news to be fake, a rumour or publicity stunt. But the news was everywhere. I felt disbelief at first and then outrage. Why? Why did you do this? What made you do this? Questions leading to more questions. I wanted to know why???

The little, inconsistent information and sequence of events that was fed to us through media just didn’t add up. In the days that followed, I was anxious and restless, as the more I started getting to know you, the more I was sure that you would have NEVER given up on life. This meant that someone else or other people were culpable.

Day after day, I observed all the speculations and floating theories around that doomed day. I was left with even more disturbing and unanswered questions. Who did this? Why? Why didn’t the police conduct a fair and thorough investigation? Why is everything so secretive? Why is there a cover up? Why YOU? Such a righteous person with a heart of gold just cannot deserve this, then why did this happen to you? Does God even exist? Why angels are crucified and demons not punished? Why is justice denied?

Thoughts of your last agony, your unfulfilled dreams and your unlived future that would have been so beautiful gave me sleepless nights with tears of fury and frustration. I could do nothing. I had never felt so powerless and crippled before.

What is even more excruciating is that people in power who can actually influence to bring your culprits to justice are doing absolutely nothing. I used to be an ardent fan of Bollywood and its celebrities, my biggest dream was to direct a Bollywood film, but it is so agonizing to realize that these so called ‘heroes’ are actually immoral, narcissistic and spineless cowards in reality. Not one notable celebrity spoke up or supported the demand for CBI probe and fair investigation except Kangana Ranaut, Shekhar Suman and Shatrughan Sinha. Not even the ones who you admired, loved and respected.

But there is a judgement day where all of us are answerable and 100% Justice will be done by God. There will be no discrimination, no influence or compensation accepted, no partiality made. Justice will prevail! (Bible-Psalm 94:15 reads, “For justice will prevail and all the morally upright will be vindicated.”)

I have absolute faith in God and I know your culprits will be brought to justice.

An Instagram page @fulfilling_dreams_of_sushant where a community of around 19K+ fans have set out to fulfill all your dreams and made it their mission, provided some respite. While watching the videos I had tears of relief and gratitude for the ones fulfilling your dreams. You had once said “Whatever dream you have, be sure that it is going to happen, and then forget about it. Then you have to come back to the present and be there 100 per cent.”

You’re such a beautiful and powerful soul Sushant that your dreams are being fulfilled even after you’re gone! You are forever immortalized and you live on in the hearts of millions across the world 💞

We have never met Sushant but I haven’t had a stronger connection with anyone else. There is a strange but a very strong cosmic connection between you and me that I cannot understand or explain. The past 8 weeks of getting to know you, your genius, your thoughts, compassion, wishes, dreams, vision, missions, way of life, zeal and passion has led to a rapid paradigm shift in me.

You have inspired, awed, uplifted, stirred, influenced and transformed not just me but many other lives. You awakened us to injustice, reminded us of our true values, encouraged us to follow our dreams and reminded us to appreciate the wonder of being alive on this planet. You have changed my life forever. I want to be like you, full of life, dream big, dream often, be excited to fulfill those dreams, lead a purposeful, impactful, meaningful and inspiring life – “I am just ‘you’ away from glory” 🦋

“Somewhere between neurons and narratives, I was born, I Lived(Dreamt), and seemingly died….#selfmusing”
Yes – Seemingly, because YOU ARE, eternal and forever, always inspiring millions of lives ♾️

I believe you are in your happy place with your mother and have discovered and unraveled all the mysteries of the universe, you were always so curious about 🌈☀️🌙🔭

“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there is a field, I’ll meet you there Sushant.”

Sushant Singh Rajput, my guiding star, SHINE ON! 🌟
Love you forever 💗
Yours Truly,
Bhakti Mehta

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