Dearest Sush,
I still can’t accept your absence and I think, will never be able to. I still remember watching Manav in those checked shirts and blue jeans with a innoncence on his face. When you left Pavitra Rishta, I never watched it again. I never knew about your struggle of 3 years to enter into Bollywood and when you broke up with Ankita, I blamed you without even knowing the facts and I still don’t know but I’m sorry I misunderstood you. I’ll regret it all my life.
I was a kid only when I heard, you were AIR 7 in AIEEE and I was surprised like what this guy is doing in Bollywood but I didn’t know you were also a physics Olympiad winner and you got a scholarship from Stanford University as well but you rejected it to pursue your dreams. You were a self believer, Shiv bhakt, passionate and the most positive person I have ever known, which shows in your growth too,from being a drop out from DCE to a background dancer to a television actor to a Bollywood superstar and finally a Real Star💔
I didn’t follow your work that much because I was not a Bollywood fan. I remember watching M.S. Dhoni(as I was a dhoni fan) in theatres for the 1st time, I said nobody could have done it better than him. You were extraordinary. But still I could not follow you and I will regret this all my life. Now, as you are not with us anymore, I will keep you alive in my heart until my heartbeat stops. I have still not watched every video of yours, because I only have these treasures of you which will inspire me forever,to dream, to challenge myself, to keep the excitement going and to live in the present. Whenever I will feel like giving up, will watch you and think what you would have done if you were at my place and I know I’ll get my answer. I’ll read your selfmusings, your dreams and will continue to learn everyday. Just like you, I have so many dreams but now I am going to write it and work for it. I’m going to make you proud Sush and that’s my promise to you. You have taught me the real meaning of Life and Dreams. When you said in Chhichhore ” Success k baad ka plan sabke pass hota hai, magar galti se haar gaye to uski koi baat hi nahi karna chahta” you were wrong in your case, you had all the plans of success as well as failures. You challenged your dreams and fulfilled it. You have inspired me so much. I’ll tell my kids about you and your inspiring stories and will teach them what you taught us. You are going to live on forever. I have never felt this broken before, I wish I could meet you once. I wish I could’ve known the human inside you. So many if’s, could’s, why’s but this will not bring you back.💔
It’s been 2 months since you left us but I’m still in shock that Why did this happen to you? You were so full of life, so passionate. You were a dreamer, a believer, an achiever and more than that you were so pure. Sushi, You were something, people are still connected to you in some ways (Tera mujhse hai pahle ka nata koi, yunhi nahi dil lubhata koi) and there will always be a connection with you. But the truth is, you were too good for this fake world, we never deserved you but I know you are looking at us and giving us strength to fight for justice. Oh my rockstar, nobody can stop us or defame you and your lovely family, we are their strength and they are ours, we will fight and will get justice. As Ankita said, you truly were God’s Child. But still, without you this place seems so incomplete. We miss you and you know what your Best Friend Fudge still thinks that you will come back. He misses you a lot. Not for us, but atleast come back for him, please!
You chased stars and see, now you are a star ‘Dhruv Tara’ and will find you in those stars you loved so much and also will try to find that smile, up in the sky. Take care Gulshan but still Can you please come back, Please? ❤🌻⚡🌈🦋💫🌟🌪
Your guilty admirer and A Proud Fan
Akanksha