I am just You, away from Glory

I never knew who you were when my cousins just kept talking about Manav and Archana and how so handsome Manav was.

Three mistakes was one of my first books, I never watched Kai Po Che because books are books and  movies are just a few pages. Never watched Shuddh Desi Romance because well Live-in? I was the greatest fan of Sherlock Holmes since school english book story of Conan Doyle on Deductions so, as a movie buff, I waited for Byomkesh Bakshy, but it was only on the screen for one weekend. Koi na I thought next time.

Did not see MSD because (1) I knew either I would hate it or love it so much (watching the songs, I decided to look at more of your films and judge you on your acting instead of stardom). What happened during BB happened with Raabta, I like reincarnation plots and boy oh boy that cycle scene. Kedarnath was not released in Uttarakhand.

I had to look at Sonchiriya trailer twice to believe that you would do a film on such a topic, same happened to it, came and went within a week or two. So when Chhichhore released, I took my mom and some friends and baby I cried, and every youngster in India as we have felt the pressure, have stood last in the race of lions and been called Losers. Chhichhore is a milestone in Hindi mainstream Cinema.

So I went ahead and watched MSD now and I absolutely fell in Love with your brilliance in portrayal, I couldn’t expect such a thing coming from Bollywood. It was another milestone for Hindi mainstream Cinema. Dil Bechara was a well portrayed one, where you took care of the details of portraying emotions. I saw Raabta last week and was amazed at how much you controlled whether I was able to connect to your characters or not. I was looking forward to you portraying different characters from History.

When I heard the news, saw your pictures, it came all as a shock, denial. So during extreme pain, I started meditating and gradually went to a place where we were just flakes of snow. It is probably that you are around and are part of all of us.

I have felt what you have felt, the pain, the inexpressible rage, the inhumanity of it all. I am sorry as a human that we have allowed such things to happen to such beautiful souls. I say this from all, and with love. We known you are somewhere happy, in a place better than this, close to people you love, living in this physical universe through us, wishing you the unknown unknowns.