Dear SSR,
I remember how unlucky I was on 7th May 2018. That was when I first texted you a message on instagram. I knew you from days of kis desh hai meraa dil and cherished the raunchy and exuberant face of yours, which casts contagious smiles now and then!
Hailing from a south Indian family, they considered people from film industry are like stars on the night sky, all we can do is just stargaze! But my perspectives took a detour after seeing a person on instagram replying his fans. I remember begging my parents to take me to a theater to watch MS Dhoni. My family was exclusively devoted to rajnikanth. We visit theaters only on his movie release days.
I could neither see that movie nor tell you how much I loved and lived admiring you. My memories of getting your replies when I told ” I got a job Sushant!” and then you said “Fly high my friend💫✨”, “Thank you for inspiring me”, you said “love you❤🙏”
All this makes me feel that I’m blessed to this extent that I could share a few moments and a worthy soul that I shared few seconds with you in your life!
I always wanted to see you once and get your autograph in the book “the secret principles of a genius”, which I bought after seeing them in your hands.
Many a times I’ve relished and bragged “Sush replied me!”
This star gazes back at his fans! He is not a fallen comet! Not a meteor shower! He is my sun stepping down to earth! Hot, warm, kind and friendly”. My parents never believed me though!
I was guilty I wasn’t that knowledgeable like you and couldn’t hold conversations on diverse topics, which you discussed on Instagram. I felt bad and I wished not to pretend of knowing them. Instead I wanted to learn them and ask you doubts!
I was working as well in learning diversified things. I started learning that I liked many other things which I never knew I did! It was all because of you!
I thought we were different but I learnt we had similar tastes. The difference was you found and explored your dreams and I took the step lately after being inspired by you!
Moreover I dont trust the tale of death. The soul of our loved ones always hover around us and help us, acting like a guiding star! You are here around, its my fault that I cant see.
You taught me I was ambidextrous, that I loved astronomy, rekindled my love for books with a change in my reading genre, my lost love for physics. I might’ve missed discussing them here.
But I know after living a life of fulfilling my list of dreams, learning lot more skills, gaining some satisfying knowledge, relishing every second I have here on earth, I hope to meet you on the other end.
I feel betrayed by god for not being able to see and talk to you here!
Still hang on sush..
We, millions of fans have lots to tell you, discuss about the neowise, blackholes, quantum physics, EPR paradox and so on..
We love you! ❤💫✨
With loads of love,
K.s. Aashika