Extraordinarily common man

December 2018, I just turned 13….A wintery sunny morning but I was having a bad day. Though only 13, I still had an Instagram account. Why? Only one reason— to read Sushant Singh Rajput’s #selfmusing quotes. I was only 13 so naturally, I didn’t understand the meanings….but reading them I understood one thing for sure— there’s a lot to understand.

So…coming back on December 2018…Sushant had posted yet another quote (of which I had understood nothing)…already a bad day, then this quote…so I sent a comment on his post saying that,‘ I don’t understand your quotes initially but I wish I could express in words what predominant role they play in my life’. Well…one doesn’t write expecting a reply always. So I was also not expecting a reply. After 45 mins or so, A notification blinked on my iPad’s screen ‘sushantsinghrajput replied to your comment on his post’. I, at first, thought it must be some of his fanclub, then I checked…checked….and again checked…Yes!!! It was him…and it wasn’t a small reply…it read, ‘If awareness is then we don’t need to try understand what we all already so beautifully understand to the depth of love, compassion and resonance. Thank you for talking to me. Much love.’

That message made me feel so special…I have been his supporter for the last 5 years. If a girl of 12 years age could recognise his aura, I wonder why the world failed to make him understand that his existence is of huge importance, and we are thankful that he lived. I so wish that he got this amount of love when he lived and laughed.

On 14th June afternoon when the news broke out, I felt an external force crushing a part of me… I have never experienced so much pain in my life. First I thought, the pain would subside, but no…I swear with every passing day….I still think of him. That wide grin, that deep educated and compassionate voice doesn’t exist now.

Sometimes I feel would things have been easier for me to forget had he not left a personal note for me…but don’t get me wrong I am thankful to the universe that Sushant at least spent 1 minute thinking about what to write to me….1 minute in his life is mine…yes I am fortunate. I am satisfied that I admired him when he lived and he knew that. I will continue to admire you my photon in a double slit. This extraordinarily common human being is eternal…bodily existence can’t define him.