Just Sushanting…🔱🦋🌪♾

Dear Sushant,
This is my third letter here and I don’t know how many more I’ll write. 14th June 2020, it was a Sunday but not sunny at all instead it just stimulated all the cold darkness within.

I was sitting with my mom, she read it somewhere and I said “Kuch bhi…Fake hai.” Tne very next second I googled and I was completely shaken. Kuch samaj nhi aa raha tha shayad abhi bhi nhi aa raha.

I rushed into the room, switched on the television and that was it. Tears started rolling down my cheeks. I experienced everything – numbness, disbelief, tears, a lump in the throat amidst the thousands of whys and other questions for which I had no answers.

I’m writing this letter on 26/10/20 and exactly 14 years since the day you came to Mumbai just to chase your dreams. It must be an extremely special day. You had hope, excitement, passion and dedication embedded in your heart.

You smiled while tilting your head a slightly just like an inquisitive child and I smiled along. Always when I praised you, I had an arc on my lips.

An AIEEE rank 7, Physics Olympiad winner having that crazy momentum to become an engineer dropped out of a prestigious college because he found something which drives him and he wanted to do it because he found himself.

Bemg an introvert, you found the performance arts liberating. I don’t like using ‘were’ as I strongly believe you live inside all our hearts.
The part of us away from ‘glory’.🦋

Darwaza khula hai,khula rahega aur pyaar bana hai, bana rahega!

Everything I want to do, I want to do it like you. I look towards you for every good thing and just sushanting.♾

Soon you know I’ll leave you
And I’ll never look behind
‘Cos I was born for the purpose
That crucifies your mind
So cmon, convince your mirror
As you’ve always done before
Giving substance to shadows
Giving substance ever more.❤

Memories linger on till we make new ones on the other side.
Thank you my Preet, Manav, Ishaan, Raghu, Sarfaraz, Byomukesh, Dhoni, Jilaan, Shiv, Mansoor, Lakhna, Anni, Samar and Manny aka Immanuel Rajkumar Junior.
Wherever you are, just keep smiling, dreaming and see how much we loved and will love you eternally.

Thanks Sushant! ❤
Anshika