When I was a school going girl and got a cable connection to TV at home, I was keen to watch the daily soaps. The first show which I started watching was Pavitra Rishta. It was very interesting. I felt very bad and upset when someone would downgrade MANAV in the show and loved him more when he accepts them without reflecting back. I thought it was real. With time I grew up, cable connection was cancelled because of my 10th exam. And it happened then. I didn’t watch your first movie Kai Po Che Sushant. I was really not aware. And time went in flow. But you came in a bang with MS Dhoni. Wow !!! What a clean movie so much of clarity. You are the only reason I got to know who Dhoni is. I started watching cricket then. I was so so happy. You were the one who was Manav of Pavitra Rishta and now a Bollywood actor. You are such a true inspiration. I would not hesitate that I was not that big fan of you that time. Even I heard so much news reports about you which got a negative thought about you. And then …..
You came with CHICHHORE. You made speechless. . . You made a space In my heart . I genuinely felt you are te best actor in Bollywood. Self made with own effort. I got to know you more. I loved you.
And the day 14th june 2020,really gave a shock. I was not able to accept. I felt as if a movie shoot going on. I was truly speechless . I was not ready to accept. I didn’t miss a single news report about you. You can’t leave this way. This was not wat we expected from you. I used to work in night shift . Yours death was a shock of life. I used to cry during my shift why god took you this way without giving a reason to us for accepting a death. I was running on a mirage not leaving a single option to get what happened with you. I watched each n every videos reports about you. I wished if there would a true person who could talk with your soul and let us know what exactly happened with you. I again started watching Pavitra Rishta. I watched Kai Po Che then for first time. Even there you died in end. That hurt me more. Every night I would sit in front of lord jagannath and cry. Scold him why he does this with good people. Why this happened.
Now its been a year almost. You are still alive. I accepted you left. I accept my mistake not supporting the time you needed your fans the most. I am sorry for everything. I would make sure there should not be a second SUSHANT.
Keep playing and smiling wherever you are . I hope you could read out my soul for you
Miss you Sushant❤❤
Rajashree